My life via the web. I really haven't been up to much this past week. I've felt pretty bored. It's been raining everyday and the with cold weather forthcoming I'm having pre-seasonal depression. Once winter is here I'm not bad at embracing it; it's saying goodbye to summer that's tough. I have a new bike ready to be built for winter riding and commuting. I went with this frame: http://www.vassagocycles.com/fisty.html. I plan to build a singlespeed with fenders.
I am looking forward to my next job at SRAM, although not very motivated. Everyday I'm here I feel like I don't have the special skills needed to make it. Maybe I should head back to school and learn. I am just feeling of little value. I've been at odds with my general life direction. Do I want to make a lot of money? Do I want more time for relaxation? Does relaxing just make me anxious? So here I am trying to be positive but feeling weak.
I did put together the responsibilities and requirements for a position that could exist here at SRAM. I would work as a coordinator for our product management team. I ran it by a couple of guys in the department and they wanted to make sure I knew I would need multiple key industry contacts. This is where I become apprehensive because keeping 'contacts' is not something I've been very good at in the past. I can change but I seem to get in touch and stay in touch for a limited about of time. I peak, flatline and then dive. That'll be the hardest part. The rest is easy, tech communication, SAP reports, and ride testing.
I feel like I need a group to join. I do a lot by myself and am getting the feeling of solo identification. I don't identify with a group or culture. I'm floating and I'm tired of it. I've been in a lot of temporary places none of which have satisfied. I want to try something new but at the same time I don't want to give up what I have built. I just need more community. The few long term friends I have all live far away. I don't stay friends with people I see on a daily or routine basis. I think I get bored of them.
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I really like your bike frame. I like the simplicity of it, as if I could evaluate such a thing. Will you go with those handle bars that are in the picture. I would like to try those on my bike if that is possible.
ReplyDeleteUnderstand your dwellings and they are good, not bad. Putting "you" together is ongoing.